...moving still...(in a wrong direction?🤔)

Chose a way despite of the experiences of such roads, and pathways which have the storms all through and confused travelers themselves and the people of 'maybe yes maybe not' mentality.

They bring me to verge of deciding to divert and pickup on the highway, but then the hope of struggling through and making it till the end with the same passenger brings me back on this way again.

I have no idea how long and till what stop this passenger travels through these struggles with me. I feel sad if this passenger de boards and hits other highway, I'll be left alone. Then, may be these storms and struggles may not matter to me at all. They only have a meaning till my co-passenger travels with me.
But it leaves me in pain... again...!

I think in my head 'just be a co-passenger only so that when people come and go to their destinations (as it seems everyone is destined towards something or the other) you know only one thing... they're only the passengers and taking their journey's via different places.

Why try to make someone's destination as to reach you? Unless someone wants to travel with you because they've decided so.
You don't want to travel alone, especially when it's the only passenger you are traveling with.
In all this, the willingness of the other passenger is the most precious.

             ****

Well, last night I couldn't sleep
I got up and started walking
Down to the end of my street
And on into town

Well I had no one to meet
And I had no taste for talking
Seems I'm talking my whole life
It's time I listen now

Well I walk passed the late night boys
With their bottles in their doorways
And I walk passed the business men
Sleeping like babies in their cars
And I thought to myself, "Oh, son
You may be lost in more ways than one"
But I've a feeling that it's more fun
Than knowing exactly where you are

Like a stone
Carried on the river
Like a boat
Sailing on the sea
I'll keep on walking
Oh, I'll keep on walking
Until I find that love or that love comes to find me

             *****

Me (these days)

I'm thinking all the time these days. Things seem too difficult, close to impossible. At the same time there are people who expect from me to do everything like a super human. I'm not the one and so I am a good reason for their disappointment. There's love in my life too...But again ... with conditions😂 she keeps trying for us to stay in her own way though...
So...Living it these days with odds and evens of life. But most of the times... it kills me and I'm able to still challenge it...I wouldn't be what things are trying me to be... and I would prefer to look at the things in a different manner...
... I'm living it...😇

Head girl

Hey everybody !
I'm Janku and I'm here of course to ask you if it would be of some help to all of us if I'm voted as head school girl. Three questions that ran through my mind with the thought of head school girl.
1. What is head girl concept? What role is it of the one appointed?
I think it's more of a bridge between teachers/management and the students. The one who available internal and external matters as the face representative on behalf of the school. (Put more flesh here in your speech janku)
2. What would it mean to me?
I needed one such mediator always and I'm sure we all do. Let me tell you at the end when I leave the school I'll have the memories when I could be of some help to somebody and it worked. Above all I'll have a pride / satisfaction of contribution back to where I belong, here.

3. Why me?
Well...
One that I can think of now, is that I'm "ready & willing". Two, both school (teachers and management) and the students go through a lot (misunderstood efforts of each other at times). Let me just be that link to this chain that keeps connected direct or indirect to all the links, empowers them to be leaders and passes on that fire within.

Can I do that? Well I know that I can if you're willing to contribute your bit. I want myself to be more a receptive human and respond to you, and be available.
I know this is a critical position to be in but I'm willing to be that pleasant assistant/facilitator to my dear teachers and a person with always listening ears available to all my fellow mates.

All need to be dealt a little beyond than just the academics...Because I read a quote from someone (or you can say "from Don Bosco a friend of youth" - you decide): "Education is Relationship", "Education is of Heart". I feel responsible to bring ourselves close to it if not 100%
Focus is the nourishment of the emotional being.
Now I'm feeling sleepy janku...

What parents and others are expecting

All my life till now (I'm 34 running) I've had an opinion about myself. Doing what I want to do, and doing so I thought it's "right" to follow your heart. Well...! Following your heart may be a great idea for some. But in my case it seems a lot of people are paying for my freedom of thought and actions. I today feel accountable to them all.
They said one thing that made me to think more intensely that "though you're a boy but you aren't behaving like one when you run away from your responsibilities." It makes me to think.
They also brought an example of a boy in the neighborhood who started earning low in the beginning but is daring now to contribute good enough that my parents can't expect from me within six months or so.
Makes me to think again.
Thay said they're worried about my marriage as I'm getting older year by year. My argument was that I'm ready to get married but not with the compromise but with an appropriate person, and if I find no one such I can remain single. It disturbed them.

Emo parlour says...

...your emotional intelligence is the foundation for a host of critical skills—it impacts most everything you do and say each day.
... everything is 'sound' if you're emotionally sound...{that you don't get carried away with this energy called "emotion", rather, you're able to enjoy (stay in it for a while, breathe-in and take time to respond) be it any emotion}
... above all be happy that you're emotional coz it's a natural endowment... so I feel blessed when people say that you're emotional...😇

when i was in pithoragarh, i thought...

I sit here today looking at the Lights in the houses, on the streets coming up one after the other... houses located encircling the little field down there... and so are the encircling roads in here... cars moving seems like blood viens to this small. Mountains all around standing tall and wide...
I started to think as I sit alone on this rooftop that...
-life is too short to explore more and more in this world
-its people, places, nature, music and food that makes you fall in love genuinely
-but nothing better than having your beloved by your side (as I see my people so happy and free - Dimpy and Shobhu) I love the way they relate to each other ...full of life
-no matter what life has on the other side (worries, tensions, sadness or anger) enjoy this moment because it is never ever gonna repeat itself... even if you come again...
-Love someone madly...like crazy... thats all you can offer to people... nothing otherwise has brought you in the world while you were born, nothing other than love is that you can carry or leave with people when you go away
-if you have loved that's enough... even though we all need to be loved too, but it's fine because you did... and if you didn't get it in return it maybe because they couldn't get you through their mind... they found it difficult to container so much love... and maybe it didn't belong to them...but you love...don't hold it back...

And finally...I think...
I'm here today and tomorrow... then I'll be somewhere else...It is amazing...Carry in the best that you can... Love...For people, places, nature, music and food...

I've never seen a lazy man...

I’ve never seen a lazy man;
I’ve seen a man who never ran
while I watched him, and I’ve seen
a man who sometimes slept between
lunch and dinner, and who’d stay
at home upon a rainy day,
but he was not a lazy man.
Before you call me crazy,
think, was he a lazy man or
did he just do things we label “lazy”?

I’ve never seen a stupid kid;
I’ve seen a kid who sometimes did
things I didn’t understand
or things in ways I hadn’t planned;
I’ve seen a kid who hadn’t seen
the same places where I had been,
but he was not a stupid kid.
Before you call him stupid,
think, was he a stupid kid or did he
just know different things than you did?

I’ve looked as hard as I can look
but never ever seen a cook;
I saw a person who combined
ingredients on which we dined,
A person who turned on the heat
and watched the stove that cook the meat –
I saw those things but not a cook.
Tell me when you’re looking,
is it a cook you see or is it someone
doing things that we call cooking?

What some of us call lazy
some call tired or easy-going,
what some of us call stupid
some just call a different knowing,
so I’ve come to the conclusion,
it will save us all confusion
if we don’t mix up what we can see
with what is our opinion.
Because you may, I want to say also;
I know that’s only my opinion.

By Ruth Bebermeyer